Today I had the entire day to myself… well, sort of, except for a few fun things in the afternoon. Other than that the day was mine, all gloriously mine. Well, I spent most of it messing with this whole new WordPress thing. Very complicated for a former Blogspot gal. Amazingly, I think this blog is finally presentable and I can begin tweaking it now that it’s got the basics. Rob is great for help on WordPress- he spent over an hour tonight giving me a phone tutorial!

I was talking with two friends today and it was mentioned, probably by accident, that one of our mutual friends is having a party Saturday. Which I wasn’t invited to. I was very aware of my body’s response when I realized that I was not invited; I felt a very literal clenching in my stomach, which lasted for about an hour. I couldn’t stop thinking about it. While I’m not sure of the reason, I am very aware of the feeling that I’ll be missing something. There’s going to be fun and jokes and experiences that I will be left out of if I’m not there. And that’s a very silly reason for being sad.

But I see married couples all around me, and since I’m going to be part of a married couple in less than 2 months, I wonder if we should be out with different friends every evening. I know that’s not me or US; I need quiet and introspection and tinkering at home more than I need to be out. But I catch myself comparing me to my friends sometimes, wondering if I should have more acquaintances and friends. I make myself crazy picking at me like that.